Hey guys, I am so sorry to those who follow me and enjoy reading my blog. I know that I haven't been posting as frequently. First of all, I have been a little overwhelmed by my new job. I was just starting to get into the swing of things there and I was starting to feel confident enough in what I was doing that I wasn't getting nervous "butterflies" every time I left for work but the last couple weeks I feel like I have gone backwards.
The people at my work are all extremely nice people and the last thing I ever want to do is let them down. It truly eats me up inside when I let anybody down. Unfortunately it has been made clear to me that I am struggling to keep up at the salon. Apparently, I am not quite quick enough in applying the color nor am I thorough enough. Now, anyone who knows me and how I work knows that I am quite a perfectionist, and I never submit to doing sloppy work, so the fact that I am not being "thorough" enough came as a shock even to me. I hate to be "that" assistant that nobody wants to work with because she sets the schedule behind. Now nobody has told me that I am "that" assistant but I sure do feel like it.
It truly has been hard on my self-esteem to go from being one of the more recognized students at my cosmetology school to being the slowest assistant. I get down on myself sometimes but I do realize that I can only do what I can. I try my hardest and if I can't keep up then it wasn't meant to work out. I know that I am not a slacker when it comes to work so I just have to take comfort in the fact that I am doing all I can. I am going out later to grab a color applicator bottle like the ones used at work and I am going to practice applying conditioner to a mannequin head to get my time better.
Anyways, that is just a little update and why I have been blog M.I.A. Please lend me any encouraging stories you may have had with jobs in the past where you felt similar to what I am dealing with. It helps me to keep positive that I will overcome this little bump in the road. Thank you guys and take care! <3